As I write this today I am being reminded of the last 67 days. As I looked back at all the tasks I have written about over the last 67 days I was amazed at how I could critique almost each task I had written....how I saw how I had failed at nearly all of them. Maybe it wasn't a good idea to evaluate myself. No...it was a good idea. It's a good idea because I need to work on these areas...that's the whole reason for the blog.
One of the areas I noticed that I need to revisit here in the future is my ability to step back and take a breath. Back in February that was one of my tasks. It followed shortly after letting go of grudges and trusting others....two other tasks that I seem to be challenged by daily. Anger...another area I need to work on. (If you could have only been in the car with me when I nearly got run off the road two days ago you'd have heard words that don't come from the mouth of a former nun!) What is it about these areas that are so challenging?
I believe that partially the problem with all of the areas that I haven't been super successful at is that I was falling into my old bad habits at times. It's important that I remember that this is a journey. I want to see a difference in the end. We don't start diets with the idea of "maybe I will lose weight." Rather, we enter those types of things with a hope that there will be great change. Should working to change my life a day at a time be any different? No.
Some of you may be disappointed that this blog today is short. Re-evaluating the past 67 days is alot more than I thought it would be. With it being holy week, tomorrow I will be more likely not talking about the good, but following up more with the areas I need to work on. It's alot more in depth than I thought it would be. So hang in there with me everyone.
There is no doubt that anger and rage does stand out in my area needing improvement. Your example is the reason I try to stay off of the streets as much as possible. It seems that people get real brave when they're inside that protective shell called a car. They push their way in front of you, even if they have to force you off of the road to get there. So now they are in front of you, and you are behind them. What's the difference? That is what I have to tell myself; otherwise I might get out at the next light and kick butt. So I work on this area by saying, "they are just about 1 second ahead of me. Wasn't that all worth it?" I could go on and on about this subject. But that's why this area needs a lot of work for me. I'm trying to deal with it, but have a long way to go.
ReplyDeleteAs I reviewed the last 67 days of this blog, I noted some specific areas that need obvious work. They are: anger/rage, patience, fear of the unknown, negativism, taking for granted, and assertiveness.
Isn't it kind of like an alcoholic? When you can admit that you have a problem, you've just taken the first step.