I know that I have talked in the past about control issues but this one is definitely an area I need to work on. Controlling my emotions is something I need to work on. In the past if I got upset enough I liked to find an unmovable, unhuman or animal object...many times a tree...and I would get to the point I needed to punch it. After a few bruised hands and knuckles and even a slight break across the top of my hand I knew I needed to work on my anger emotions. But this is not just about anger. It's about working on all the emotions.
What happens when I feel sorry for myself or when I am excited? I often times take each of those emotions to an extreme. When I feel sorry for myself I tend to retreat and get very tearful and it really affects my sleep. When I am excited I tend to want to tell everyone. I think it even verges on bragging. So how do I find a middle ground? That I am not sure of.
Sure, I have been blogging on here for 73 days now and I usually have an answer. Today I don't. Mentally, its taking alot on me as I know that this has been an issue that I have wanted to work on but wasn't ready to deal with. So how do I balance emotions without going to an extreme? How do I not hold in everything (which of course can cause physical problems) while also not going overboard on the emotions? It's a struggle that I think alot of people deal with.
It's a new beginning today. It's now about figuring out how to begin it.
I can't say if it's better to hold down the emotions, or better to just let them out. How do you deal with your emotions without simply depressing them, which can't be a good thing to do. Maybe the answer is to pad the tree so you don't get bruised. Or just get a punching bag. If letting out your emotions is hurting your body, then you are either punishing yourself, or looking for sympathy. I don't see that as any help for balancing emotions. Maybe if you punched that bag, again and again, until you are so worn out that you can't move, then you've dealt with the emotions, didn't hurt yourself, and got your daily exercise in all at once. Now that would be something that you could look back on and be satisfied with the results.
ReplyDeleteOkay. If you didn't understand what I said the first time, I guess you have to read it again. No really, something was wrong with Blogger yesterday, and I had to reset my computer several times trying to get my comment to post. After I finally got confirmation that it posted, I was happy and went to other things, like our new puppy. Now I check back this morning to see that it's posted twice. I just hope that I won't see another one or two here by tomorrow morning.
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