So often when bad things happen to me I begin to think that someone up you know where (yeah...heaven...) has it out for me. As the days go on I begin to wonder if I am just unlucky or what is going on in my life that is making it so challenging. What helps me through each of these types of times is a line of a prayer that I read on January 1st that changed my life. It's a simple line that goes: "Lord, in all that I do and in all that happens, let me never lose Hope."
So, why is it, "I am glad to be alive day?" Well, for those who haven't heard already, we lost a tree on Saturday. It lept to its death. Well, I wouldn't say lept...maybe more of split in half and lept. Miraculously it missed our powerlines but took out our phone line and our cable and internet as well. A few minutes prior to it falling I had been preparing to walk from a neighbor's to that exact area it fell. I could have been hit and even killed. Miraculously and through the intervention of a friend I didn't. I am alive instead.
So what does my not being injured and having hope have in common? Hope gives us something to live for each day. Even when bad or difficult things happen, when I begin to look at the positive things in my life, it helps me to process and think about things better and more clearer. If I would have paniced and started to fret over the loss of that beautiful tree and even more so the work that I have to do to clean it up, I wouldn't have seen the good things in my life. Especially things like the fact that no one nor myself was hurt, my home was still intact, and it didn't make me forget the good time I had prior to it all happening.
In all that I do and in all that happens, let me never lose hope. Crazy things, unmeditated things, damaging things all happen. But I will never lose hope that tomorrow will be better. I will never lose hope that something good ill come my way. I will never lose hope that someday, when my time does come, that God comes to me and personally takes me up to heaven. Hope allows for openness to all that can happen.
Let you that are reading this never give up hope.
This was so beautiful, so right. Remember I mentioned a lady who is a spiritualist and a MIL of one of Mikie's friends in AZ? Well we spoke, i'll have to catch you up. I have been thinking about the retreat idea for me and the thought of the peace it could bring me and hope sounds just what I need. I leave Thursday for AZ. I have no idea what will happen, I think when I see my sons things I will be very sad and cry. I can only hope God gives me the strength to move forward from all the evilness of that family and never look back once I have his things. Take care, Love, Lori
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