I know that the topic of failure is something that I have blogged about before. In the past I blogged about the fact that I fear failure. The fear of failure alone would cause me physical illness and even anxiety. I realize now, since originally writing about it, that failing is an important part of our life. Failure has to occur many times in order for us to re-evaluate our lives and our directions.
Am I saying that I am failing at something and thus the reason for this blog? No, although recently I have felt in different scenarios that I sometimes set myself up for failure. Like today. Today I began sitting at this computer beginning to hate that I started this blog...that I have to come up with something to talk about for the entire 365 days....that I now have people following who expect a blog each day that they can read. Why did I do this to myself? The more I tell myself that I need to do this I tend to try and talk myself out of it doing it. Did I set myself up to fail by starting this or what?
And I realize that I didn't set myself up for failure with this. Rather, now is the tough time. Now is the time that I have to really work hard at this blog and at these topics. I am not failing, rather, I am being challenged. I am being faced daily with a challenge that I need to either choose to accept or choose to fail at. Failure can be a choice. We can choose to give up. But I don't want to give up. I want to succeed at something. I want to reach the goal and look back at the journey or the race and know that I made it. I made it through the shin splints and the pot holes and the fatigue of doing it and I kept going.
This is something I need to be aware of daily. You know the saying, when the going gets tough, the tough get going. Well, today I am going to change that. Instead, my new motto will be when the going gets tough, the tough get blogging. This blog holds me accountable and I am not giving up. I just needed to keep saying that. I needed to keep reminding myself. I am doing this not for everyone reading this. At some point I started to think about what the readers of the blog wanted to hear and not what I needed to be doing to keep going on this journey. I began to fear that I might keep blogging and no one would want to read this. Then...would I fail? No. I am not going to let that happen. I am going to write for me and my journey and hope and pray that you all stay with me.
Call this blog a lack of a good nights rest or whatever today. I just know that today is not my giving up day! Ever onward!
I really think that this blog should be about "you", and anyone who comments can bring their own experience into it, thus making it about you and them, but both should be on the same subject.
ReplyDeleteYou do have readers that are depending on this blog every day. The benefits for us all can and should be great. When I quit smoking many years ago, I quit cold turkey for two weeks. At that time I wanted a cigarette, but I said to myself, "Self, what are you doing? You've now invested two weeks into this, and if you smoke now, you've wasted the entire 2 weeks”. So I continued for two months, and then I said to myself, "Self, you know that you are craving a cigarette, but you've been free for two months now. What a waste that would be to give up now". After that, how could I turn back? It would be like throwing all that work and time away.
That's how it is with this blog. You now have 46 days invested in this. And if I may say, they are 46 great posts that are now in the bank. The time has gone by very fast. If you keep going, and look back later, you'll say to yourself, "Self, we're nearly half way, and can't give up now, or all that is wasted. We must finish".
Thanks you for this blog. Those that participate can benefit and gain from it.