In everyone's life there are things we all have to face. They aren't fears, rather, they are facts and truths. For instance, its a fact I am getting older. It's a fact that as I get older I have more pains. It's a fact that if I live in Indiana that at some point during a 365 day time frame there will be snow. But these are facts that I can deal with. There are other truths that I have to begin dealing with. So, today, is about remembering the past but facing the truth now.
One of the things that I have to face is the fact that people around me that I love or care greatly about are also aging. My grandmother's health is declining. She and I have been close. While I know that she is 94, there has always been this image of her in my life and in my mind of the days when she was very spry and active and helping me grow. While I am an adult and I know that I am, something happens when I am around my grandma and I want to be that little girl again. It's a great feeling, but not realistic. Now I am having to be the adult and help care for her. Never did I think that would ever happen.
This is just an example of the realities that I have to be more alert to. It's not about forgetting the past but rather stop dwelling on the great past memories that I wish were realistic now and instead take advantage of the future and make memories. In a flash she could be gone and then what would I have left to remember? Her during her weakest days now? No...I won't let that happen. Rather, I will sit with her and converse and learn from her while I still have these opportunities.
That is a good blog today. There is some excellent insight written just above this writing. No comment is necessary. (Mainly 'cause I just can't add anything to this.)
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